The answer to the question in the title should be 'Which one - that of this second, one second ago or ten seconds ago?'
Every second is a new battle and a fresh start. Life is about struggling with the yh"r - all the time. It matters not what happened till now but what one does henceforth.
The question one must always ask of themselves is: what does Hashem want from me NOW? Then one must say: I don't care what happened before, right now I'm going to do His will.
More on this another time iyh. Be strong.
